my new home!!

bedroom (2 person)

kitchen kabinet

bathroom

ruang tamu

alhamdulillah, rezeki Allah..new hostel..cool :)

new person..

I've got new haircut!! after all this while keeping my looooooong hair like a Rapunzel, hehehe..now it's a new style, short and layered.. feel so light and different..feels like a new me, but so gonna miss my old long hair..i hope this is a beginning of being a new me..in a better way i suppose..and guess what, time is moving so fast. In 2 days time, or exactly in 1 day *pass 12 already, i'll be a student again..nervous, freak out, excited, anxious, thrilling..everything mix up right now..i just hope for the best and i shall give the best in becoming a doctor..all with your permission dear Allah :)

lumia 800, insyaAllah tomorrow it's in my hand :)

p/s: seems my blog is so lack of pic this few days as it turns out to be a diary of me instead :) 

its Tuesday, 31st of July 2012, 6.15 a.m , the day i have made my unequivocal promise to Him..a pure and real one..I believe this is what He have been waiting for because He knew all this time that i can change myself... i have the power, the courage, the strength to change and it just the matter of time. And now i'm ready :) Thanks Allah for giving me a second chance..I wont let You down this time :)

money sickness =P

just finish my super duper hangout with my best friend.. it was AWESOME especially when you know you just received your salary this month...perghhhhhhh!!! trust me, you wont find anyone like me who could spent a bag full of money just like that in one day..*snapping finger =P hahahha, not a good thing actually though it is really my  super power..kekeke..i do feel sorry for my future hubby..even back home, it feels like i didn't spent enough yet..aigoo2, what happen la pika oiii...hahaha, well, it was once in a blue moon puuunn and the money came all way down from my effort, working at haagen daz..full time, morning till night, 9.00am till 11.00pm, 14 hours everyday for a month..who could possibly stand it???tiring, stressful, but its worth it.. :) 

shall sleep well tonight :)

no more hiding..

analogy...

am watching some videos performed by the piano guys and their music was really freaking awesome..so calm that it really make me into it...then something pop out into my head..The feeling of being this one person.. A person who has her own aim about her future, who can differentiate the good things and the bad one, not only able to differentiate, but at the same time, able to control herself in  doing what she should and what she shouldn't. she is the one who has gone through some much bitter moments and bad experiences, teaching her to be tougher as the time pass by. and now, she should be ready to change herself into a better person.she is the one who soon going to be the greatest doctor and specialist, end up in a marriage with the right person, still with her strong iman in her heart.. insyaAllah..she is the one whom in few more days, would be a medical student, getting new friends that can lead her to Allah, lead her to the right path and future, with all the lecturers, supporting and helping her to achieve her ambition, her parents who always pray for her day and night, and Allah who always be with her no matter when where or how. and she herself with all those courage, pulling herself from bed every morning doing what she should do. now, she is whom she was suppose to be this whole time..no more hiding herself, no more pretending and no more acting as she knows the time has come.she knows it! and she shall fly into the world, revealing her true magic and her true colours..just wait for it...

hahahhaha..first time ever..well, im ready for the answers actually so nothing goes wrong..awesome steps i did there..full of courage and dumbly done..not sure if its a good step or bad steps, but come on, at least i can learn a lot from that..thanks to my friend..an awesome friend and i shall learnt from that mistake!! thank Allah too cause i know every cloud has a silver lining :)

thank you Allah :)

this seems to be like a diary...sometimes it came up useful, motivated, sometimes it end up with a bunch of crap..well, that is life I suppose..full of pretty comfort wont give much colour in your life..i wonder how my future would end up ..of course Allah has decided it, the best for each of us..from kindergarten to primary, moving to secondary and now, ending from pre-U to degree soon..each stage has it's own memory, sad, joy, embarrassing, terrified, overwhelmed..hahaha..what a life..Thanks Allah for giving me a life..I know i've done so much sins and i dont know if i have the ability to prevent anymore sins in the future, but i promise that i will try my best..You have given me so much and it really make me ashamed of myself :( only you can forgive me Ya Allah..please give me one more chance to change :')