you know the feeling like you wanted to stay in bed 24/7..
i am now. its not because im too lazy to do anything, it just im scared of my future..
last night, i cant even sleep worrying about something..im not sure what..it just came..
i assume it might have something to do with my future..(degree life)
i was hoping to hear good news this morning and yes, i got it just now..
it was not basically a good one cause it came along with a bad one..
i got my offer to study medicine in indonesia (yeayy!! alhamdulillah, good news), uni gadjah mada!!
and i am really3 EXCITED about the offer =))))))
but, 'there's a but there'... =((((
jpa said i have to pay on my own for the first year..they would only sponsor starting my 2nd year onwards..
and the amount is way to huge..my dad said he affcanord it, but they dont want to take the risk..
if there's an emergency on that year, they might caught in trouble..and i dont want them to be in trouble just because of my dream..maybe it is not my fate to further my studies there although it was really my dream..
then, they have made their decision, which im going to pursue my studies in cucums, cyberjaya..
i cant say anything although i was hoping they would even ask me first if its ok or something like other parents might have do..sad part i guess..yeah, im a lil bit sensitive..dats me.. =P
well, i cant say anything..just able to let go my tears in hot warm shower..feeling much better now..
oh Allah, if this is what i've been destined for, there's one favor i need, ''kuatkan hati fizikal rohani dan imanku untuk menempuh segala cabaran dan ujian yang mungkin bakalku hadapi kelak''
Ya Allah, engkau mengetahui apa yang tersirat di hatiku ini, sesungguhnya Engkau Maha berkuasa dan Maha Mengetahui segalanya'' =)
aku hanya hambamu yang lemah yang hanya mampu berdoa, usaha lalu tawakkal. =')
p/s: still hoping for good news..if not, cucms, wait for me..2 August 2012
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